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Sunday, September 26th, 2004
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11:28 pm - urgh
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im going to bed now..after telling you all i want to die, i hate my fucked uo family, i wish iw as never born..i hate me
current mood:  depressed
current music: my own cries of sorrow
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| Saturday, September 25th, 2004
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2:11 am - *cries*
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Have you ever been depressed...said the wrong thing and lost someone you thought cared about you....I hate this fuckign world so much, it's full of hypocrites and liars and filth, it should be destroyed, completely and utterly destroyed..like me..*sigh*
current mood: depressed
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| Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004
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7:41 pm - Another concert review..and a cd review..
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OK first for the concert review..the venue? The Cathouse..the bands? Pro-jekt and Susperria..and PC!! Thats right I saw them in action...again.. And to say they were the best band there? Biggest understatement in the history of the world...even bigger than saying Hitler was mean... They kicked ass...and Flesh...well soon Im going to be singing "Take you pound of.." all day...Dry DEity as good as always...the other songs Im not sure of the name of..but fuck they are good...Then Pro-jekt..the bastards cut PC's set short..and they sucked..the lead singer was so so up himself...urgh..ok the music was ok...but still playing it live...NO...and Susperria, a thrash metal band...and we all know what that means dont we,,every song sounded the same, I wasnt sure if they were just oplaying the same song over and over and fucking over.... So PC kicked ass everything else shite..and Susperria were on for so long I missed Mortiis cause I had to leave early..bastards...
Ok the CD..of course its the new Green Day album..and one word describes what the first 3 tracks done to me...AMAZED..it kicks fucking ass..I havent listened to the rest yet...well I am now..and fuck this is good so fucking good..buy it..now..i command you..and listen to PC..they are playing the Barfly on 5th November..BE THERE!!
current mood:  amused
current music: Green Day
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| Sunday, September 19th, 2004
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4:58 pm - The Band
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I am going to make this band work, if it kills me, ya hear me david...so get to writing the goddamn keyboard
current mood:  artistic
current music: Burn In Hell-Clawfinger
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| Wednesday, September 8th, 2004
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9:11 pm - Boredom
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At last my comp is fixed and now I am bored out my skull..*twitches* i am again thankin Fi, Sandy and laura for their kindnesws in the comics *nods*
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8:37 pm - Soundtrack of my life
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The Soundtrack to Your Life Survey
Make a soundtrack for your life, matching songs with the following:
Opening song: The Package-A Perfect Circle
Waking up: Anarchy-KMFDM
First date: First Date-Blink182
First kiss: Just Like Heaven-The Cure
Falling in love: The Love Song-Marilyn Manson
Seeing an old love: Stupid Kid-Alkaline Trio
Heartbreak: Pictures of You-The Cure
Driving fast: Dry Deity-Pointless Creation
Getting ready to go out: Girls, Girls, Girls-Motley Crue
Partying with friends: Tribe-Mad Casule Markets
Dancing at a club: Fearless-VNV Nation
Flirting: Kinda I Want To-NIN
Feeling sexy: Thrust-White Zombie
Walking alone in the rain: Date With The Night-Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Missing someone: I Miss You-Blink182
Playing in the ocean: All the time in sunny beacj-Mad Capsule Markets
Summer vacation: Burn Baby Burn-Ash
Fighting with someone: The Fight Song-Marilyn Manson
Acting goofy with friends: Sound of peoples screams
Thinking back: End of the world- The Cure
Feeling depressed: Hurt-NIN
Christmas time: Paradise-Clawfinger
Falling asleep: Sweet Dreams-Marilyn Manson
Closing song: Starfuckers Inc.-NIN
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| Tuesday, August 31st, 2004
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9:23 pm - Rachel Stamp
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I love this sogn by rachel stamp
Hey little girl, I long for the taste of your lips
Hey little girl, I long for the crack of your whip
Hey little girl, won't you come out tonight?
Hey little girl, you look good in the blade of my knife
Hush now baby,
don't you cry
Saturday night is a good night to die
But don't fall in love with the
Witches of Ängelholm
I saw my face in the mirror
I put away my doubt, child
I saw my face in the mirror
Now there's twenty of the fuckers buried under the house
Hush now baby,
don't you cry
Saturday night is a good night to die!
And all my friends are home alone
Dialling dirty numbers on the telephone
Now baby, listen to me - count the little witches
But don't fall in love!
I think I'm falling in love
Hush now baby,
don't you cry
Saturday night is a good night to die
And I'm just here on my own
Pretty little flowers painted on the wall in my blood
Listen to me
You get what you give, if you know what I mean
And I fell in love...
Dead at the hands of the witches of Ängelholm!
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| Sunday, August 29th, 2004
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3:01 pm - weeeee
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havent updated in a while...nothing new...fuck my life sucks but im relly relly fuckin happy *dances around*
current mood:  bouncy
current music: everything on my iPod-all 947 tracks..mwahahahaha
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| Friday, August 27th, 2004
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7:17 am - Yesterday
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Yesterday was my Birthday...David forgot....thats is all....
current mood:  gloomy
current music: Everything on my new iPod
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| Wednesday, August 25th, 2004
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4:04 pm - First Day Of School
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Not as bad as it could have been, avoided certain people. I have Mr McCaskey as a form tutor and english teacher which is good because i think he is the only teacher that doesnt want me dead..hmmm ill update more later
current mood:  aggravated
current music: Rammstein
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| Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
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10:56 pm - Lyrics
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Here is the lyrics i like they are from Last by NIN:
still feel it all slipping away but it doesn't matter anymore
everybody's still chipping away but it doesn't matter anymore
look through these blackened eyes
you'll see ten thousand lies
my lips may promise but my heart is a whore
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10:53 pm - Urgh
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Ok...school...fuck...school....omg....school...its sunk in...school tomorrow, and its my final year and ineed to work...omg..
On a lighter note its my birthday in 2days and I get money to buy a n electronic drum kit with, yaaay, im tired, im going to have to go to bed soon, but that would involve the effort of getting up, walking upstairs and getting undressed and udner the covers, to much hasle really, plus I wanna see if Circe logs on in the next 10minutes like she did yesterday, if not...bah..ill be going to bed anyway, ok it not 2days till my birthday its oneday and one hour, omg im going to be 16, shit 16 years i have been alive...16 how am i not dead, cancer and other things has tried tio take me out but noooooo im still alive, why, what the fuck is so special about me..maybe jess will get on before i go..i doubt it though..school...fuck...why...im so incoherent right now, why, whynnot? why everything...??well..?? i found osme lyrics i fell in love with today but i have forgotted them, i will out them up 2morrow...after school...god..school..
current mood:  nauseated
current music: Rammstein
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1:50 pm - "This is not a love song.."
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I love the new Rammstein song Amerika, eeheehee, I went to pizza hut 2day, was ok i guess..hmm, im bored out my skull I dnt relly have anyone 2 talk to, im just singing along 2 random songs, im emeting up with Fi and Sandy on Sat for my b-day...is that a good thing..im not sure...ill probs see David on thursday anyways...hmmm..wee..school 2morow..yay
current mood: amused
current music: Rammstein-Amerika
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| Monday, August 23rd, 2004
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8:54 am - Death..and..stuff...
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Well this weekend was pretty bad. On saturday I went to visit Amands, after her mum died a few days earlier. Understandably she was very very upset, I feel bad for her. Well of course I feel bad for her so when I say it it just does stupid doesnt it, I really suck in these situations. I mean you never what to say, cause it all sounds so good and you think it will help in your head but thwne it comes out it sounds so just pointless, so empty. Normally this wouldn't really upset me, because that is the kind of person I am, byt because this was Amanda's mum it was quite upsetting, just for the fact I like Amanda, she is one of the seven or eight friends I actually have so of course I dont want to see her upsety, and I guess it just hurts me that I can't help. It puts your own life and the life of everyone you know in perspective, reminds us of our own mortality, our own weakness, the fact we could go any second. That is why I have decide not to think about suicide anymore, now its just life, live everyday to the fullest, let everyone know what I think and how I feel. I just dont want to lose someone I care about and like without them knowing I do. *sigh* anyway that was Saturday then my dad took me and my brother to see I, Robot. It was good but how could I really thik *sigh* then on Sunday I sat in all day, boring and univentful...then same todsy and tomorrow and school starts, well Im going to start making most ofd life, so i cant complain
current mood: calm
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| Friday, August 20th, 2004
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10:31 am - AAAAAAAARGH
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I DONT LIKE PEOPLE AND I DONT LIKE MYSELF AND I HATE FAMILY!! weeeeeeeeeeeee im so tired i stayed up till 3am tthen i went to bed and put marilynmanson on, really quite like i do everynight, and my mum iracously could hear it tonight, so i woke her up at 3am..*sigh* ive had better times, I also feel bad for 2friends but I wont get into that. I go to my dads tonight *waves small flag* oh yay, oh yay...I hope erin feels better i feel bad for her.. well now you knoe one of the friends i feel bad for, im not mentioning the other. I finally did get to sleep bout 5ish and had these weird ass nightmares about eagles...god the eagles...*cries*, i feel like shit, maybe i shuld jump off a cliff, you know how many people have sai they hated me in the bast week?? 10...10 people in the past week, 4in the past day, what do i do to become so hated, i mean seriosuly fuck, what the fuck, argh, sometimes i wish i could kill you all, just rip the world apart, and school in a few days fucking brillaint, NOT, then its my birthday which would be ok if it werentr for the fact roberet cant go cause of a family thing and david refuses to go cause he is a fucking bastard and he has gone back inot his hating the world and verylittle thing phase, so amanda and jen say they wuill go but i dunno if they will, amanda might, jen probably wont but she might Oh congrats Fi to gettin the job *claps* took you long enough, mwahahahahaha... what else, talked 2 sandy, i need to work out how many people are going to mortiis, and he told me bout another concert supporting rachel stamp on 5nov which is a friday so i should be able to go to that as long as i dont have play rehearsel, now all they need is queen adreena to tour again lmao woooo, urgh i feel like shit, what else is thjere to say...not much but i should start going back to the gym im starting to get fatter and fatter which sucks so much its rediculous, and i need to read a psu book twice in a few days and take notes on it which is again my own sueless falt for not doing it weeks ago, plus i need t look for a job, im 16 soon i have new responsibilities, fucking ace thaty is, at least noone woke me up 2day at anm...but at10 am wow great 5 hours sleep i bet im going to have a great day, arent rants fun, i havent written a song in so fucking long, try 3months, 3months since i ave written a song, whats wrong with me, am i mental? well we all knew thast but we alsop know what i mean, i wanna see the village, or i, robot, im bored i need mental help, maybe ill just go plunge a knife into my heart right now, sounds good right?
current mood: depressed
current music: Marilyn Manson-Mechanical Animals (album)
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| Wednesday, August 18th, 2004
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10:26 am - Urgh
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We got broadband and basically it is fucked and webpages dont load..soooo...im annoyed and my mum woke me up at 8am to try and fix it, urgh, yesterday was so boring i just sat in all day, its the same today, and tomorrow and friday but then i get to go to my dads, oh yay, lol, so yeah how fun and then its back to school next wednesday and i wont get to tal to as many people online no more which makes me sad, though im sure some of them dont wanna talk to me, yay im hated *waves hands abvout* so yeh i hate people, i hate life relly, im sick of feeling lonely i have felt it all week and it is driving me mental, completekly mental sometimes i wish i could just rot away in a hole somewhere away from everyone, and i wanna talk to jess but she wont be on for ages so im stuck here, although im talkin to ash wich is good because i like her *smilee* and im talkin ot millie, shes pissed off cause her family sucks, im relly nt in the best of moods myself but of course im not tellin anyone that cause of course noone cares
bye
current mood: lonely
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| Tuesday, August 17th, 2004
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9:01 pm - Bored
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God im bored, so very bored, just sittin chattin away to Jess, which is interestin, shes fun, makes me happy, I fell really tired, and noone is textin me, makes me sad lol *sigh*
current mood: artistic
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5:49 pm - Boredom
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Ok...not much to report, just how godamn scary Doom3 is, i dont like screaming...hmmm....im sad alot lately, i dunno why i just feel down, relly lonely, wishing iw as...nevermind
current mood: sad
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| Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
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12:24 pm - Exam results
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thats right...i got my exam results..I got three 1's and five 2's, which are all crdit passes, yay. How i passed french in credit i will have no idea, but i now have £300 in my pocket, well on my way to gettin an eletric drum kit
current mood: amused
current music: None
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| Tuesday, August 10th, 2004
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12:05 am - God im bored
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meeeeeeep, just though id say, so...hm....its midnight, and i cant sleep, and i wish i was dead, or sleeping...ha...standard grade results tomorrow...im shitting myself...oh yes...yes i am..
current mood: worried
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